Month Recap

I am really not good at this blogging thing J So, in the last month this is what has happened:

1. We went home to AZ for 2 weeks. The main reason for going home is that Nick and Tessie graduated from College but also just to see family. It was really nice to go home and really hard to leave. It makes me sad, that like me and my brother, my children are going to be far away from their family. It also makes me really jealous because besides friends, we have no one else to help out. If I need a babysitter, if I have questions, if something comes up, it will always be up to us to figure it out. I just really hope that everyone knows how fortunate they are to have family close by. (I am not stepping down from my soap box.)

2. I now have to give myself nightly shots of Lovenox a blood thinner because of my past blood clot. This is by far not fun. However, I have gotten used to it by now and how to make it the least painful as possible. Only 6 months left to go.

3. We bought a SUV this last weekend. We decided to trade in my beloved, but falling apart, F150 for a Honda CRV. I love the CRV so far. It gets good gas mileage for and SUV and has all the options (including leather) that I wanted. It was just hard writing out that check. We had been saving for 3 years to buy the vehicle with cash but seeing the money gone from my account does make my heart flutter a bit.

So the big question how am I feeling??
I have had a lot of headaches lately and sharp pains in my stomach. The headaches come every afternoon and are just a reminder that I am alive. The pains however the Dr. tells me is just from things moving and shifting in my stomach. I have a little baby bump (enough that all my pants that used to fit are tight) but I am excited about getting big enough to show (and not look bloated) and also I really want to feel the baby. At this point, I just don’t feel like there is a baby there. We also found out that in 3 weeks we will have an ultra sound and hopefully at that point find out how the baby is doing and hopefully the sex. Anthony and I both thing we are having a girl and would be shocked if we have a boy, even though we really don’t care…as long as the baby P is healthy.

And Then There Were Screams

Well here I am again wondering hmmmm do i want a kid of my own? We have been back home with the family, which includes my two young nieces. They are a couple of really cute and adorable little girls most of the time. They run around being all energetic, but then they hit that threshold for fun and all hell breaks loose. They start to get crabby and argumentative. Heaven forbid the youngest be put down for a nap in her play pen even though she can't hold her head up. That is about the time the air raid siren known as her lungs go off and the screaming ensues. While everyone who is party to the scream fest is thinking oh she will wear herself out here shortly she has plans to hit new highs that I did not think were possible of a child. Eventually she is removed from the play pen and she stops. However, I sit there and think do they all make noises like that? Alas but they all do at some point.

I realize that this will just be a part of fatherhood that I will have to deal with eventually and I know that the lifetime of being a father will be well worth the things that may cause me to second guess myself, and as long as I can maintain my excitement of being a father I think I will be ok. Again I must say that my nieces are energetic and adorable and I love being around them and even if the do get crabby and scream sometimes, I think we all do and having kids will be my biggest adventure yet.

Dreams of Borneo

Yet again we have been out in limbo and have not been able to post, by limbo I mean preparing for vacation to visit the family and traveling to Arizona. Well the family is just ecstatic that there is going to be a new little one running around. However, if I were to ask Grandma V several years ago about grandchildren she would have gone running and screaming while looking for her emergency reserve ticket to Borneo. This is exactly the reaction we were all expecting when the first of her grandchildren came into the picture, but now a year and half after our niece was born she has proven that she is in fact not afraid of those little human replicas. She is already making plans of activities she will do with her next grandchild and plans to come and visit, spoil the kid rotten then leave just when he/she is starting to drive us crazy. So despite what a grandparent may say, even if they insist to not be called a grandparent, remember they are still a grandparent and secretly excited about the prospect.

Grandparents aren't the only ones that claimed thoughts of escape to Borneo, there was a time when I was one of those who claimed they would never bring that sort of terror into the world...that's right a little Ellerbe loose in the world. I guess there must be a preprogramed age where all of a sudden a guy is like damn I think I want to unleash a terror on the world, especially since every parent is supposed to have it 10 times worse than their parents had it. If that is the case I had better lock up the gasoline I had planned on keep in the kids bedroom, hell I almost blew myself up with novelty colored hairspray. There's no telling what a kid of mine could do with anything remotely flammable. So please remember you should be happy that I opted out of the trip to a tropical island in the middle of the South Pacific to keep you all safe from the dangers inherent in the child of a former pyro.